I hate sitting out of sessions. I hate it with a passion. It frustrates me to not be involved and to not be learning hands on. I also worry about how it looks on me, the last thing I want is for people to think that I don’t want to take part or do drills. I want to get stuck in every session and more often than not tell myself off for over thinking instead of just doing. Since music made a swift exit from my life, roller derby has become my only hobby and I really want to step it up this year. If I cannot physically skate, I will still make the drive from outside of Nottingham to attend and watch practice where possible. It’s been a while since I had to sit out, but my body had other ideas.
A year ago to this day, I started my derby journey with the Nottingham Hellfire Harlots.
I’m a little bit on cloud nine this week. I have post bout feels and this week I also learnt I was the lucky recipient of the Captains Award for the B team game! So many feels and I even did a happy cry!!
Saturday 28th February 2015 was another big day for me. It was boutday and both our B team and A team would be playing as part of a double header. I was lucky enough to play on both teams on the day. But the part that made it even bigger for me? Both games were against Birmingham Blitz Dames. The league I first learnt to play roller derby with.
With the events of the last week, I have been really questioning myself. Questioning what I want, whether I am a good person, whether I am good enough for anything. Although this is titled when to question / be thankful, this isn’t a this is what you do post. Continue reading “When to question and when to be thankful – taking stock of what you have.”
So it happened, I am in mourning over lost comrades and band mates. A big part of my life is over.
Sunday 1st February 2015. The day I finally got to represent my league.
Continue reading “The big day! My first A Team Hellfire Harlots bout!”
In roller derby, we are striving to do things to the best of our abilities. We turn up, we learn things, we practice things, we keep going until we can do them and we continue to use them in drills and game play.
12 days in to the new year, I have already slipped up on my aspirations for 2015. But you know what? I’m not beating myself up about it. I have not failed and I have not given up, simply hit my first wall in a long line of bricks to break down.
Yes! Do your homework! All will be clear soon…!
Continue reading “Moving forwards – do your homework derby folk!”